Yess, I'm still chatting very actively with him. And you know what? It's getting worse now. Why? Cos I found out that I can access MSN from the office. *Evil Grin* I am so bad. I am so addicted. I dont know whether it's to MSN or to him? Maybe it's to him. He is just so charming. Ok Fendy, dont run after me, chop me up into pieces and dispose half of my body at Raffles Place and the other half at Bedok Reservoir ok? I dont think you are that deranged anyway. Ok enough abt Fendy. Let's go to the more exciting person. *Slap my own face* I played Literati (that's Scrabble)with F*. And we ended up arguing. He said that Literati bastardize the English language. So bloody irritating. I was so fed up that I just ended the game. Tsk. Sometimes I just hate him. He just have too much to say abt everything. He is also a very down-to-earth guy. He talked to me abt not loving my friends too much. And he talked to me abt a 1001 other things. Sometimes I love the fact that he's very much in this world but sometimes I feel that he shouldnt destroy my fairy-tale world with his down-to-earth attitude. Hrmph.. actually I dont know why I'm blogging abt F*.. I think I shd stop here.. He is just a friend.. I shouldn't blog abt this. Oh sheesh.. (now it's your cue to feign surprise) I think I have a crush on him. Hrmph. He knows me so well. As in, he knows when I'm being manipulative and when I'm being nice. I think I'm crazy.. I need to stop this before it's too late. I've always had commitment issues. I dont when this will end. I dont know when I'll stop flirting. It's scary you know. I love Fendy and I know he's the one but I dont know why the fuck am I still talking and getting to know other guys? It's like I try to stop myself but I cant. I dont know when I'll behave like Im 25. Will I have the same problem when I'm married? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME? ARghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
~your smile made the difference~
--9/13/2005 05:16:00 PM--
